Household Tasks and Conversations (Sun)

 Woke up with some energy. My body doesn't feel like it's in so much pain. How the heck did I sleep so late again though? Days are being wasted...

Woke up 12:30pm(ish) and cleaned photos out of my phone because my phone is too slow and not properly working. Then there was the church meeting at 2pm; this group is inspiring. Learning more about the church and God and community is important. When asking the pastor my question at the end, she made mention lots of people are struggling with isolation and loneliness these days. 

It felt good to get out of the basement. The sun was shining bright. Left to go get medications and then dinner. Got the car washed and picked up an Avocado and Shrimp Salad. Shoveled snow. Then need to stay warm.

Had a few more good conversations in the evening with some girlfriends. In fact, I had conversations while shoveling the driveway (again). Driveway shoveled so the landlord can properly come home. And back to... you guessed it... "The Witcher." Dang it! I can't stop binge watching shows. It makes me happy! But at the same time I need to get my personal stuff done. 

My body and my brain are just exhausted these days. 

At least no work in the morning. (Granted, that's to get my personal life in order, hopefully.) 

Weekend Bliss (Sat)

Up at 4am (don't ask why) and thinking about different things, being goofy, and ready for bed. Descent sleep. Wake up before 12pm. Day is half lost. Can't seem to move. My body hurts so bad from what was accomplished the night before. Start watching "The Witcher" which is really good. Take a nap. Get a shower.

It's CELEBRATION DAY WITH MY MOM!!!! We are celebrating all the accomplishments for 2022: health, job security, health insurance, finances improving, having a good place to live while looking for a new home, going back to school to study (even though it's a slow start), and surviving my first week on second shift.

Finally, I get ready for dinner. Look pretty. Meet mom. And we go to a restaurant called "The Rock" on Big Fish Lake. I loved our cozy booth. The atmosphere was wonderful. It was nice getting out of the house and seeing my mom. Socialization is good. Food is delicious. And then we went back to her house to see their puppy. The puppy is growing like crazy. He's a happy little fella... just wish his name wasn't Buck; stupidest name ever and not fitting for a beautiful great day.

Got home and had a nice conversation with a friend. Watched more of the Netflix show. Off to bed. 

Just Finish the Day! (Fri)

What happened... Crazy dreams??? Why am I having regrets about losing people in life (not dieing, people walking away)? My emotions are raging and I'm feeling too much lately. I want it to stop. Am I tired? 

It must be exhaustion!!!

When I'm tired I can't turn off emotions or thoughts. I just need this day to be over. 

You guessed it! A meeting at 1pm on Friday. It feels like all that has been accomplished this week is merely working. My personal life goes by the wayside. 

Meeting ok. Taking Monday off to try and get refocused. And I just need to survive the day. 

Friday went. Worked over half day in Toolcrib and then worked over half day in Stocking room. The guys were kind on second shift to invite me to a Pot Luck for dinner. It turned out fun. And then back to work.

Home late. Exhausted. Bed. 

My poor animals... at least they get to cuddle.

Staying Focused (Thurs)

Woke up late. Thank goodness for easy driving into work.

Heeeyyyy! The team is back in full force; the three of us. Getting caught up felt great. Back to doing what I do best. Toolcrib first and then Stocking Room.

Sadly, everything in my personal life is falling apart. I'm not accomplishing anything. I'm exhausted. I'm frustrated. But hey, let's continue working.

Got to work and stayed focused. So focused I forgot about our Tier meeting (whoops). Accomplished everything that I needed too and then did a few trainings at night.

Another late night. Home. Good night. 

Hump Day (Wed)

Woke up 8am for a doctor's appointment. Thank goodness it was virtual. Interesting. Glad we met. Looking at possible surgery opportunities. We'll see what the future holds. Also, why are the animals' fur coats cold? Even Olaf is cold. That is weird??? Hmmm...

Time to officially get out of bed. Alright! My body hurts. My arms hurt. Lifting bar stock and blocks gets heavy over time. Time for work again!  

Working another long day. Working on fixing mistakes. Doing my best. Learning how to ship packages on my own- adding to the schedule I'm already comfortable with. 

It's cold and snowy. Let's get this day over with.

Finally get home only to realize the heat in the house has turned off. House is 58 degrees. Um... burr???? That might be why the animals were cold in the morning. So heat went out sometime between Tuesday and Wednesday morning. How the heck to fix? Long story short, figure it out. Fire on. 

Bedtime.

... really hoping things get easier moving forward. (Just frustrated everything seems difficult and I'm feeling a bit isolated and lonely lately.)

Building Confidence (Tue)

Woke up tired and later than what I would have hoped, but onward to work. Before going to work, I must shovel the driveway. The snow is practically up to my knees. It took about 2 hours to shovel 75% of the driveway. Grab food, then a shower, and gotta fly outta here.

Meeting at 11:30am for new employees. It was a positive and interesting meeting.

And then it was time to complete day two on my own. I had a little more confidence. Apparently there were a few errors from the night before, but that's ok, because I can fix the errors and make things better. Slowly building speed. Slowly building confidence. Slowly understanding the job a little bit more. Note: I did have to miss bible study today; there was no time. I feel bad but I had to do what was best for the job. So it was still a long day, but I'm proud of the minor victories and accomplishments. 

Nerves (Mon)

 Wow! Apparently a week has passed since I last wrote. Sorry about the delay. But it doesn't mean I'm necessarily off track. There were just some unexpected delays. Things are still going to be ok though; there's still hope for success.

SNOW ON MONDAY!!! It's cold. Snow falls. This is one of the bigger snow storms that started Monday and is expected to continue through Thursday. I know the snow is bad, but if it continues, I'll shovel the driveway when the snowfall slows down just a bit. 

Monday was the first day I was on second shift all by myself. So nervous! I wanted to impress my team members while also doing a good job. I woke up. Had a meeting at 11am. And then went into work. Nerves took over my body. But at the end of the day, slow and steady, I survived my first day on my own.